Last Day of 2007

Where do i begin? How do i start? I have too many things in my mind right now. Too many information and photos to post in this freaking little blog. I have taken hella lots of pictures from the trip to Shanghai. I need time to properly write and post it...... *Really damn short of time!*

Another 15 minutes to finish my last day of work for this 2007. Today is 31st Dec 2007. Last day! Hoooraahh! *grinssss*

Happy New Years Day!!!!!!

Kakakaka!

Wait for my posting on the food in Shanghai, the escapade at Paulaners in Binjiang by the Huangpu River in the freezing conditions :) The marvelous journey there and back!

Hasta la Noche, Baby!!! :)

p.s. i just love the scenes of the "properly" dance techno club in Shanghai. Feels freaking good when there's good awesome music playing!

Romeo

I was going through the videos of my dearest and Romeo, all stored in my notebook memory, just now. I am soft right now and missing them so much especially Romeo. Being away from my own family and own kid is no joke. I am feeling dreadful now. Thinking about my baby boy and how he has grown up. So fast!



I was browsing to Darling's blog and found the post about Romeo's last Christmas celebration with us in Mid Valley. I remember he was so tender and so fragile during back then. We ate at Piccolo Mondo and have a simple yet nice memorable meal for our Pak To Anniversary Celebration. It was packed at Chilli's and we really wanted to go to Chilli's but the waiting list was like 45 minutes and we are simply too hungry to wait for 45 minutes.




Hence, we went to an alternative and Piccolo Mondo we went. The picture taken back then, Romeo is just so fragile and so tender, so baby look. *Grinnnssss* Now! He is just too big to be a baby boy! So cheeky and so smart. I love and miss him so much right now.

*Feeling Soft* ................

Sleepy

I'm kinda bored and sleepy now. My metabolism rate is running slow, kinda flat terrain and going down hill. My mood is not helping either. Too cold or too tired. Lack of sleep perhaps, but still enough to last me a day. My heart is not beating with adrenaline anymore. Maybe its the rice just now during the lunch. Maybe its the process of digestion of rice and food in my stomach. Just flat....................................

Tell me. How is your year end like? How do you spend your week like? Celebrations of Christmas and New Year? Or clearing all the leave necessary before end of the month. Some are having holidays and days off. Back to hometown and going out shopping and hanging out.

I am blabbering right now due to sleepiness. I felt sleeeeeeeepyyyyyy................

Out!



P.S: I am so fearful to be super extreme fat as last time due to excess of sitting in the office the whole day especially after lunch!

X'Mas Eve Parteee !!!

We wish you a Merry Christmas! and a Happy New Year! ..... :)

I was practically dragging myself out of the bed today. I almost miss the bus. I am tired and i am drunk in beer and booze last night. But, i am strong. Hahaha.

The countdown and the dinner was G.R.E.A.T! It was marvelous. We sang, we dance, we practically laughed until the floor shakes. Food is okay but the environment and the crowd is just simply out of the world. We are crazy beyond god-like! :)

Simply the most dodgy person, Calvin Liew aka Ah Fair, or known as Sohai Fair. Dodgy with his stupid look.... Wahahaha!

Me too! Hahahahahaha. Surrounded by 2 piglets. *Looks like me as referred by my colleagues* :)

For more photos, check out my facebook album in X'Mas Eve 07 Partee.

Saturday Dinner

The entrance of the macho man fully suit and zipped up. Feeling cold but feeling funny. Feeling shoik! I look so fat and so BIG! OMG! *Just did a hair washing earlier*

The weekend Saturday last week. We have a gathering dinner to mark the celebration of the "official" starting of Winter as according to chinese culture. *i have absolutely no idea* Why so late you may ask? I sincerely do not know. I just know that i need to be presence at that dinner.

So hence, we went around 6pm and the dinner starts. Food was cooked at home by the ladies from office. They cooked and we cleaned. Well, basically at the end, where all the remaining dishes and utensils that needed to be clean, at the end. See below.......

Well, thats me. Dodgy as it is.... :) Thats just me with picture being taken unconsciously *Bleeaaahhh* Clean up nicely and fully satisfied with work done. Proceed for a smoke later after that. Wahahaha.

Moods

Howdy Christmas! I am now very jealous and full of envyness of people back home and in Singapore. How nice! Holiday mood and holiday season.... :) I am bored to death in Zhangjiagang right now thinking all the happenings, movies, activities tonight that everyone will be doing back in KL!

Singing, hanging out, going out, eating out, watching movie, counting down, just laughing and just enjoying non-stop for partEEeee tonight! Pouring down all the blazing liquor and alcohol down the throat. *Woooooahh!* Hahaha!

Meanwhile, i was like scratching head and thinking about the crimes and begging done by children nowadays in China. Of course that applies to the whole wide world as well. For example, children in India as well. The world has comes to a pitiful state of place. Children to beg and steal for their parents and family to make a living. Horrendous!

See what am i referring. I personally encounter this and i was lucky. I was not pickpocketed but was approached for several times by children from age 4 to 12 kneeling down in front of me and showing sympathies and crying just to get some coins for food. I do not know....... I brace myself everytime i see this. I make myself stronger whenever i see this. What is more pitiful and more remorse that seeing childrens doing something like this? Do they need to suffer this fate? *Pondering*

Maybe we are somehow lucky to borned in a good part of the world. Maybe we are not when we are to compare to the developed nations. But who are we to compare? Perhaps we should be just grateful for being borned into this world that we have a pair of hands, a pair of legs and a pair of eyes right now......

Seeing these children and their conditions, their circumstances makes me stronger each time reflecting my inner self. Be stronger and be less emotional and be who i dream should be. And believe in what i do that that will lead me to success. I am lucky but i will not be lose my sight from the ground.....

Hasta La Vista.......

Advice from Anonymous

" Those who knows the best in them is always a winner… they outstand the most! What you believe in and what you decide for your future and your success has nothing to do with them….so why bother so much??? "

I agree with the advice above so much. My success and my future has nothing to do with naysayers. It is from within, the organ in the middle of the chest and the juice within your head.

I remember once that i 1st bought my 1st edition of Fortune and Forbes magazine 2 to 3 years back. Views and perspective has since changed my life. I look further, i think bigger, i see in vision, i focus more and i understand the truth even further. The 1st edition that i bought, i still remember vividly in the back of my mind, was from KLCC lower ground floor. I was estatic. I bought it. The main headline for that edition was "The BEST Business Advice I've Ever Received". The front picture was Warren Buffett.

From there onwards, i indulged myself in these business magazines, business books, economics books and etc. I received so many advice from these media. I was inspired and motivated even further everytime i read these books/magazines. Its the burning desire within. My spirit was shaken, my body wokes up and my heart beats faster.

I remember the story once from Forbes. Its about the 1st billionaire from Iceland. So fantastic. In his early 30's and make his 1st billion and comes from a poor hardworking family. Unbelievable. I read also about Lakshmi Mittal and about his acquisitions and mergers in steel industries. He onced quote,"Lifes too short to start everything from beginning. We acquire." He merged with the world largest steel producer, Arcelor. Talk about big!

I read about Carlos Slim Helu, the richest man in the world right now. Controls the telecommunications in Mexico. Damn powerful successful family. I read about the Richard Branson, the eccentric man that controls the Virgin empire. How he dream and build his empire from a scratch. His teacher once told him,"Either you are going to be broke or you will be a millionaire in the future."

I read about Bill Gates. I read about Larry Page and Sergey Brin. I read about Warren Buffett. I read about Trump. I read alot and i am continue in reading. Its marvelous to read how these people comes from simple background to become a powerful figure in this world. I read about Facebook and MySpace as well. I read about the founders of Youtube as well. OMG! Electrifiying!

I read about Chinese Baidu. I read Steve Jobs from Apple Computers story. I read about Larry Ellison and his Oracle System. He quotes,"Money is just a method of keeping score now." :) I read Tony Fernandes and Lim Goh Tong's story as well. Fantastic!

The only thing that you will regret is not fulfilling your potential within. Reach for the stars and live your dreams. Fall flat on your face and keep your feet on the ground.






You are the greatest!

Foggy Lil' Thursday Morning

Its a foggy foggy Thursday and it was shocking. I woke up and was getting ready for work this morning. I went to the kitchen to get myself a tea to refresh my throat. I look out the window and i as shock momentarilary. It was so so so foggy. I can't view more than 10 metres ahead of me. The picture shown shows much clearer clarity that my own vision.

As you can see, the view from the balcony. Shocking.





How comes it is so foggy? Dunno the real answer. Must be my encyclopedia or wikipedia to get an answer. *Hmphhh*






The view from the kitchen showing nothing at the back. OMGosh! Its terrible. And its dangerous for any drivers around driving to work. Viewing distance = less than 10 metres.

Probably it is due to the winter as foggy morning is normal here. Dunno. My 1st experience here with this foggy little morning. Vague.

Enjoy!

Shitty

I am plateau and very negative right now. I wish that life right now cold be different. I am very frustrated and i am very sad. I hate this feeling so much. My Romeo is not feeling well right now and my darling is in some very sad mood. I hate myself right now. I wish and hope that my life could be different and be better right now.

How comes that my life can end up right now at this way. The situation i am in and the whole damn thing that we are going through is not helping me at all. I felt miserable and i felt like shit. Its like a shit hole that you will never be able to come out from. I am helpless.

I need to be tough and i need to be ruthless. Soft people never makes it big in this ruthless world. I have seen too too many example of these people. They end up being no where. They struggle all their life and they will continue to struggle until the end of days, unless of course life is different, i.e. born rich and born lucky. But we can never count on that don't we.

I have seen so so many good example of people around me that i know of that makes it in their life. They are successful and they are rich. But of course again, what is success and what is rich? Different point of view and different angles of spectrum makes it different to different individual.

I believe successful and rich is when i can achieve what i desire the most. Getting what i want while enjoy the process of it, is a part of the "game of life". For me, success = rich and rich = success. When you are rich (financial freedom and lotsa $$$), i believe, will give me what i want. But of course again, there will be naysayers who will be saying otherwise, i.e. happiness is a bless, rich but not happy and bla bla bla. Wait till they are rich......

I believe this world works very simple and it rewards accordingly. Its the mentality and the toughness of individual that makes things different. I know it and i can feel it. I have seen it and i have experience it. You may call it otherwise but i believe on what i should i believe in.

And to achieve this, i need to be strong. I need to be ruthless. I need to be logical and smart. I need to be positive and i need to have a big dream & big vision. I need to stay focus and keep my feet on the ground. I need to be the "brain". Success comes with a price and the price is to be paid if you want to succeed in this world.

I am tired and i am exhausted for all these troubles in mind. Please go away! I will re-energize and i will be!

These are the tough albatross at these moment............ Out!

Irrritators and Fuckers

I hate irritators. I MEAN i do really HATE HATE those people that irritates me fucking like "siao". I hate them... How can they be so irritating? Let me reclarify in my terms of people falls into this categories:


1. Fakers
"Pretenders" who pretends to be someone else, so "fakely" and so "naively" in a sense that you feel like beat the crap out of them so that they learn to be themselves again. "I am HIP" kinda fucking attitude kinda losers who pretends to be "someone else". Fuckers.


2. $_$
A person who puts "petty" cash above their friends. A person who calculates "small" money too much. Eg. "You pay for taxi 1st la, later i will pay you back!" NEVER DID and NEVER INTEND TOO...... Btw, only RMB7 or RM3.40 Fucker the fuckers! *Tulan*


3. Your way or My way
Person who will never listens to facts and opinion, insist that his/her opinion is CORRECT all the time. "Yours Opinion" is wrong and "I'm Correct" type of freaking fucking attitude. And further "stab" you just ONE more time to prove that you are TOTALLY WRONG and I AM FREAKING CORRECT! Fuckers!


4. Politics Players
Person who makes the "HU" and the "HAs" everywhere they go. They stabs and add sugar and salt anywhere they go. Adding fuel to the fire. Make another person looks bad even though they might be not. The innocent 3rd party might be different and they might have their own reasons. But, since that YOU and ME are so different and I simply DON'T LIKE your face, i will burn your house down. E.G. stabbing behind your back saying that you simply are an ASS! D.O.U.B.L.E. FUCKERS!


How can this fucking little world have so many these kinda fuckers........ *I Ponder* let me meditate and find out an answer A.S.A.P.


Or else, i will beat the crap out of them anytime soon! Fuckers...........

Tuesday...

Omg! I am dying to watch a movie now. Been watching the trailer of the Hitman, www.hitmanmovie.com, over and over again since yesterday and i am simply not bored yet :) OMG OMG! *Please let me have an decent English movie*

I guess the nearest English cinema that would suits my needs is in Shanghai which is around 2 hours away. Most probably i will be going there in 2 weeks time. I need to recharge myself and watch a Movie! And English movie....... Oh! Please!

Today is my beloved Romeo 15th month Birthday! YaY! *applause applause clap clap* The boy has grown bigger, smarter, cuter and many more to come..... Such a smart cheeky cute boy! :) Been browsing through his photos and makes my heart grow fonder as each picture goes by looking at him. Happy 15th Month Birthday Romeo!

My dear sista, Mel is on her way to Hong Kong for her much needed vacation. Hehe! Hope that she will enjoy her time there. :)

As for me, pretty tired due to lack of sleep last night. I went for some "tai qiu" aka snookering for 4 hours! And here i am this morning waking up as if of a panda falls of the bed shivering freezing of coldness fearing to go out of the room for the lack of heat at the washroom. Damn cold to be precise........

Nevertheless, i have to get myself a knitted vest to make the body warm and a long john overall to cover up my pair of leg as jeans are no longer sufficient to warm my legs! Freaking cold! *Sleepy eyes & yawning*

Till next post, take care and cheers!



Krazybananaz out! *Romeo, H.A.P.P.Y. 15th Month B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y.!*

15 & 16 Dec 07 - Suzhou

The weekend was exhilarating! It was tiring but fun. We went to walk again but it was for relaxation rather than any shopping as i have to mind my pocket and my wallet. Cash for this month is running short. We went Suzhou.

As usual, we arrive and was pickup by our colleague's husband. Went to their home and chill out and have a nice home cook dinner localized style, in cold in fact. It was so cold in the dining hall as if that we are eating out in the open. The heater was not switched on due to the savings of electricity bills. I was shocked in the beginning, but was later explained it is normal for them to wear extra thick wintercoat even at the home. *jaw dropped*

Anyway, back to the point, was at this place again, Qian Shui Wan, for some HK food. The only 2 HK food place that we know of have been patronized by us weekendly for the last couple of weeks and since it was so regular, the chiefwaitress and waiter seems to know us all especially me and Calvin aka Fair. We will be greeted and ask everytime the same set of questions like "Nai Cha or Yin Yong?", translated meaning HK Ice Tea or Mix Tea with Coffee.


I had some sweet and sour pork yesterday lunch and decided to take a nice picture of it :) Together with it i have some Nai Cha and chinese tea. We sat and talk and smoke like chimney! Hahaha.

Anyway, we did do some window shopping and walk around at GuanQian Jie to join the rush of crowd. So much people rushing here and there buying and keep on buying. I got myself 2 long sleeve shirt at a 50% discount. RMB50 each, which makes it around RM22 for a decent long sleeve rollup shirt that i can use all year long, both corporate or simply walking around.

Haha! Nice shot for camwhoring with a scarf around my "neck" to show that i do can wear a scarf as well! :)

The Drink in Me...

What Kind of Drink Are You?
	You are a part Pint of Beer. You're happy with who you are. Sure, you may not be the 'sophisticated' and 'refined' type, but at least you're real. You don't let the little things get to you, and you have a good time no matter what life throws at you. Keep it up.
	You are a part Fine Glass of Wine. You are sophisticated and refined, but also complicated and hard to deal with. Not everyone loves you, but those who do swear that you're the coolest thing since sliced bread. One of these days the people that matter will understand you. Until then, you will be sitting on your throne as the distinguished product that not everyone has the taste to appreciate.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

The Heroes in Me...

Which Heroes Character Are You?
	You are Sylar. You are very aggressive. You like to pick fights and play mind games. You've got it coming.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

The Animal in Me...

What Animal Were You In Your Past Life?
	You were a platypus. You were eccentric and unclassifiable and it still shows. Your strength lies in your diverse associations with all walks of life. Although many people try to identify you, only you know your true self. You're a self-thinker and a bit of an introvert.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

Both Feelings

Where should i start? Today i felt both like shit and felt great. How do i express my feeling? I am who i am. I love myself. Too much maybe :P Its the god damn feeling that is messing around with me now!


But nevertheless, back to the point, how do anyone person view themselves? We are humans by nature and judging by our buildup, a normal person would have a heart. Somewhere in the middle of your chest. This organ of yours beats every second. Sometimes it beats so fast when you are in the state of excitement and while adrenaline pumps through your blood. Sometimes it slows down, in the state of weakness or in the state of blankness. Normally, it is called low blood pressure *in my terms anyway* :)


I felt both way today. I felt great yet i felt miserable. Its the feeling that pulls me in 2 different directions. I am using the tones of tunes from music plays to chill me out and balance myself. I need to make myself feel good. I am different. I am me.


I felt there are goodness and darkness out there. Maybe Yin Yang effect. I do hope for the best and everything that will work out the way it was meant to be. Work wise, everything is going smoothly and under control. Stuff need to be done and things to be done. Weekend is tomorrow and year end is at the corner. How time flies.......... *Pondering*


I need to feel myself everyday. I need to have good tunes. I want to feel great. I shall feel great!

*Sorry for the camwhoring picture of mine* :)

Christmas Mood

Today this Monday i really have the mood for some blogging. Maybe i have the energy and the focusness to do so. Perhaps its Christmas time and it is Christmas season. Perhaps its Monday and i am a little bit of boring in the office suffering from the symptom of Monday fever. I am ready to go somewhere out of this little small town of ZJG to hangout and relax and enjoy myself if i can and when i can.

I am an energizer bunny once in a while. And if when i have decided so, once i wakes up, hell broke loose! :)

I likes to make myself positive and cheerful. I listens to tunes such as Kanye West - Touch The Sky in the morning during the journey to work. Its makes me smiles and my head shakes. I am full of vibe and it feels good even when i'm alone. I enjoy every single moment when i discards all my negative thoughts and concentrates on the positive energies around me. It feels good..............

We decorated our office windows with snow spray of santa claus head and merry christmas messages across the glass. We decorated it with colorful sprays and christmas beanies. We even got ourself a christmas tree and decorate it with lights and shining balls. Feels good!

Hahaha. Enjoy yourself this christmas and have a nice week ahead! :)

Kappa aka Shoe-person

Finally after so many months of keeping and storing my beloved Kappa in the closet, its time for him to comes out and shine. Damn White! Feels like Snow White and 10 Toes walking into the unknown.

Kappa has been feeling lonely these recent days. He has been restless begging me to bring him out so that he can enjoys some fresh air of the winter times. He whisper and promised me to take care of himself and make himself clean. It is due to his fairness and his whiteness that i am worried sick. I told him, "What if you get sick and dirty later?"

I continue blabbering Kappa, "What if you get yourself dirty and full of mud?" I look at him and shows him the worried face..............



*Maybe i'm too worried anyway* Thus, i told him," Okay, maybe since nowadays it not raining anymore and i can bring you for a walk. But not to the mud and dirty places ok?" Kappa nodded in agreement. He secretly smiles at ADIDAS.

Hence, due to this agreement between us, i make the decision to let him out of the closet and make his day. He felt so happy at the office and show of himself in anyway possible. He steps his moves, he shines to others, he makes me proud! Hahahaha. Kappa is really people person aka "Shoe-person"

What a wonderful day!

Reunion

Whats the best title for this post? I believe that the best title is mention above. It feels good and it sounds good. Its the reunion of the 2 item that has since long gone :)


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I believe good things is on its way! Don't you think so? Haha. :)

Mp4

What do ya think of the Korean brand Mp4 Player? Think its good enough for me temporary until my next goal is to get ITouch / IPhone. Seriously! Quality wise is good with plentiful of options and settings. The only fallback is the limited flash drive space. But comes with a micro SD slot for further expansion when i need :)

But feels damn good at the expense of RMB399. Now i do enjoy music even more during travels and walking or shopping. Haha! *Btw, i do listens to FIR and SHE now* -GRINS- Damn nice...........

Adios!

13th Dec

Thursday. The day before Friday. Its damn freaking cold. It is bitter and it is piercing into the very bones into my fats and flesh. I need to warm up the mattress heater i bought when i sleep. I need to switch on the air-conditioner heater to make sure the temperature is nice to sleep on. My blanket is not thick enough...........

During these times, smoking outdoor is like out of the mind. Hands will froze and fingers will shake. Lips are cracking. Lips are dry. Sometimes, you might even nose bleed in the night due to dryness of the air. I need vaselin lipstick and i carry it everywhere. Drinking wine and some vodka makes the body warm. Its nice and its good.

These days i am tired. Perhaps due the lack of adrenaline to drive my days. My work is back to square one and its repetitive. Its bored and its dull. Perhaps getting more Mp3's into my lil player will bright my day up.

These are the tough albatross at this moment. Its an emotional burden. Its an obstacle to my destiny of success. I will bounce back and i'll be back.

Hasta La Vista!

2 roads

I was reading my darling's blog today. Makes me soft when i read about Romeo and ask relatives bombard her with questions. I am an idiot and i am inhuman. I felt like shit and i felt damn shitty.... How can a person be like this? I think i know the answer.....

You see, i was born into this world of mine that we are basically spoonfeed until the day we are at our 20's. I enjoy it but it also makes me weak. I am soft and i am full of love. Yes indeed i am a people person. I do enjoy the sight of people. I smiles and i am positive.

But deep down inside i know i am weak. I am not as strong as those kids here in ZJG. They are born into rough life. They are rougher people all around the world. Steel man as you can say.

I am heart broken. I can't show the world that how mushy i am while i carry my "face" with me. I am a leader and i need to be one. I wanted to be successful and i wanted to be rich. To reach that height, i need to throw away my soft side. Soft side and mushy people NEVER makes it to become rich. They are TOO soft to reach their destiny.

Hence, there are 2 choices lies in front of me. One is what i think i wanted and the other one is what everyone thinks i should do..................


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Life's complicated!

Weekend Outing

The outing turn out to be more than expected. There are 10 people went to Suzhou last weekend. We were desperate to hang out and hang loose. Maybe after such a stressful week. Almost everyone is exhausted. We were lack of sleep. We are tired. We are in dire need to let loose. We went to there expecting to gather around and eat eat and eat. We ate like no tomorrow. We are at this Zhen Wang HK Restaurant. It is cool. It is nice and it is delicious. It was superb. Food great, atmosphere is nice, accompanion is awesome and everything just clicks.

Pictures taken below from my beloved Cybershot at Haagen Dazs at Guan Jie. Its cool and we tried ice-cream :) Finally it fits to the statement, "Melts in your mouth NOT in your hand!" Cool. I have my Venti Cappucino HOT at Starbucks on Saturday. It was my 1st time that i enjoy a hot coffee so much! Nice......

*Guilty* Was thinking about Romeo and Darling at times especially during the climax of enjoying myself. Drop back to earth straight away. Felt miserable and felt guilty. How come it comes to this? *Confuse and anger* Hate it! Hate the damn feeling..... I need to be strong and i will be!

I did get my Mp4 player as i promise myself. Nice sleek black player comes with touch pad. Shiny! Will post it in my next blog :)