Randomness 2007 - Romeo and KLians

I am having a heavenly time spending in KL now. Been back here for almost 2 days, which makes this my 2nd night sleeping at my home sweet home on the soft bed with my darling and Romeo. My Romeo just so damn cute, seeing him standing up on his own and climbing the sofa, crawling here and there and grumbling 1 kind of language that even me, whom can speak several languages have no idea what is he talking about. Baby language it seems.

I am also enjoying some of our local delicacies, some local cuisine found here, made best and famous in KL and Malaysia, such as our kopi ice, teh ice, chinese mix economy rice, pan mee, prawn mee, char keoy teow, nasi with beef rendang and etc. Feel good back here but i can't enjoy all the food though, coz of fats and cholestrol issue. I have to control some of the temptations as well. Anyhow, its still better than nothing at all.

Been doing some shopping as well at Mid Valley and 1 Utama today. Shopping for a lot of stuff especially for Romeo, jeans for me and my darling, done some haircut for myself and my darling as well, shop for a portable stroller when we board the plane and for easy carry. Apparently what i've found out is that, the traffic and the amount of cars here in Malaysia entering our highway aka "carpark on the road" and the amount of cars entering carparks in shopping malls is astounding and fascinating. Too much to be exact. To find a decent parking spot in a mall during a weekend in tiring. Its either you go at 11am or just drop by jockey or car wash available in the mall. Its really funny. Considering i've been to few major cities, such as Shanghai, Singapore and few more. Its much easier to find a parking spot there. Maybe its due to the fact that transportation in those cities is much more convenient and the mentality of the citizens there. Cabs, bus, underground MRT, bicycles for Shanghai is just a common thing that we will be seeing there. Unlike Malaysians, whom i believe to be more well of when it comes to car, almost all families have at least 2 cars park at their porch. Rich Malaysians or debt mouse Malaysians it seems.

One more thing, at least now i am able to visit some of the blogs that Chinese government have banned or block in the mainland. I am able to view the pages easely without much of a hassle. Haha! Anyhow, its a holiday weekend in Malaysia and as usual the last weekend for Malaysia Mega Sales, hence explain the amount of people in shopping complexes in the city of KL. Expenditure of commoners and citizens is figure blowing. We spends millions of ringgits each day during the weekend. Good for economies, both local and internationally, good for businesses, making their sales and profit to soar sky high. Food, entertainment and retail businesses are the front runners that benefits most from our mentality of KLians aka shoppers. Haha!

Tomorrow will be another hectic day in anywhere in town, both KL and PJ, where birds will flock together in a crowded place to enjoy themselves. Splendid! Another day at home for me. No rushing for carpark, no rushing to find an empty table to eat, less stress for me. I wish you to enjoy your weekend whether you are in a mall or at home. Cheers!

Back Home!

Reach Changi Airport on Wednesday night, touching down on the runway at approximately 7.30pm. Sky is still dim, with sun shining half at the horizon. I was anxious and i felt good and felt happy in the same time. I was back to the familiar places that i can recognised. English words is everywhere. I felt like home. The feeling of long lost into a different place and being able to enjoy out local cuisine, Char Keoy Toew and Mee Rebus with Kopi ice and Teh ice after. Wah! Its the super ultimate-mind blowing meal for me since 2 months ago. Felt fantastic!

Stay overnight in SG due to exhaustion over a whole day deal, flight time from the morning to the night time. Feel tired a little but still happy after seeing familiar faces all around. Reload my Singtel and exchange all the sim card with my 2 mobiles. Apparently, my China Mobile does not have internation roaming like what other telco offers in MY and SG. I think i have to subsribe to international roaming before i leave next time. What the heck! I thought it is all automatic in these age of IT and internet and wireless communications.

Wake up early in the morning in SG, take a short bath and make myself comfy at the hotel room before proceed to buy a Straits Times and have my fav Kopi Ice and toasted bread at a chinese kopitiam nearby. There and then, getting ready to go back to Malaysia, while reading newspaper and holding a cigarette at the tip of my hand.

I've forgotten 2 things since been away for 2 months, no smoking at a non-designated area outside the yellow box even at a open air kopitiam and you do have to order yourself over the counter especially in the daylight. Not all the places but some kopitiams along the old areas such as food court as well.

Back to hotel, clean up a bit, repack to check and confirm to see if there is anything missing. Done and check out morning at 10am. By the time i've reach to KL at Times Square, its almost 5pm and being able to see my darling and Romeo after such a long time is really indeed a blessing. *Smiles*...

My heart really soft and i'm happy to see them after a long time. Will further update when i have the time. Shortage of time apparently.

Last Day in ZJG

Today's the last working day for me in ZJG before i'll be heading back home to Malaysia and Singapore for 2 and half weeks. 2 and the half weeks of rushing, to do this and that. Currently, i've listed more than 12 things to do when i reach back to Malaysia. All of them is quite important and the funny thing is, this weekend is Merdeka day and another public holiday at the weekend. I guess all will be pretty jammed up at the highway for Malaysians going back to their hometown or "lao jia" as said by the Chinese here in China.

Tonight, i think my friends here maybe will be having a nice scrumptous meal together with me to enjoy and hang out together before i'll be going back for 2 weeks. I am dead tired and sleepy now even as i am writing this blog. Mouth yawning and eyes watery, maybe due to i had more than little fried rice, 3 bowls of fried rice to be exact, together with some nice dishes served during my lunch. In addition, the food in canteen really felt funny. Maybe its just that i've used to the local cuisine food served outside that is more tastier and more variety comparing to the food i have normally in canteen.

Tonight and tomorrow will be a little rushing for me. I have to pack the remaining stuff and double check everything that i'm bringing back. Dirty clothes have to be sorted out, clean clothes have to be kept nicely folded in the wardrobe. While, tomorrow morning i've to take the morning bus to Shanghai Pudong airport straight in the early morning. It will take approximately around 3 hours from here, ZJG to Pudong and hopefully everything will be smooth and less traffic jam on the way. And no delay of bus as well. I think i have drink my fav cuppa of kopi ice once i reach SG or a glass of teh tarik ice will do as well. There is no substitute for any of the kopi ice kaw kaw and teh tarik ice in SG or MY. Its the best and the taste is just unbelieveable. Its mind blowing. Just miss my cup of kopi ice... *drooling now*

Anyway, wish me all the best and hope to see my family by Thursdays.

:)

God bless!

Apologetic

I think i am soft by nature. I am a person who is willing to bend, who can accomodate, a person who listens passionately and i am not that hard macho type of person. I am a people's person and an a weako who like to makes people happy. As long as they enjoy my accompanion, i am more than willing to slot in and make their day. I enjoy and likes seeing people smile, guys or ladies, colleagues or friends, seeing them being able to enjoy and smiles really makes my day.

Today, this morning, i was a little bit angry and harsh on someone i know. I miscommunicated and we talks on different wave length, maybe its just that i am a guy and we are not that intuitive nor receptive towards the common language spoken my the females. I was angry, but after a while, after cooling off, i believe that it is not worth to be angry and ruin our day. I wish to apologize and i do sincerely hope that everything is cool. Friends are meant so share their joy and their sorrow if they wish to. I am able to put my ego down and just erase the whatsoever bad memories that have happen. Its better that way, i believe, being able to be happy is a good blessing that not alot of people can have. Happiness it seems, auraed from from inner self and i will maintain and keep it that way.

How does you react when you encounter this kinda of situation? A situation of misunderstanding that will brings conflict and negativity and sadness. I wish that you can put down your ego, let your face down and just open with it. It will bring you joy and happiness. Believe me, i know it can bring me happiness, and so can you.


Cheers!

Perfection Service

Today is Sunday, the day that all of us rest from our tiring working day. The day to get together with family and catch up with friends. 3 more days to go back to KL, to meet my darling and Romeo, to meet my family and catch up the latest news back in KL and Malaysia. To long time since i have update myself with any news updates from back home. Hopefully all is good and better all the times.

My friend from Malaysia have just reach ZJG yesterday night. Been walking around and having dinner together. We talk and chat and chat catching up with our lost times and stories back home. We found 1 things in common that we felt not particularly special but is surprise to all of us. The service level of any business back home comparing to countries i have been to is a totally 2 different level of class. For example, would be Singapore and China comparing to Malaysia. It is not that i am discriminating or critisizing our own country men, but rather to have an open discussion whether things can be improve as a whole and a bigger picture. Not to say mention anybody in particular, but rather the service attitude NOT the service level that is the big difference that both of us saw and noticed.

The attitude of the service people in Singapore and China is to aim for perfection and customer service excellence. Nothing else matter much. They, the service people that deals with customer, the frontliner, is the most vital people, in any business that involved in end-users, which means almost any retail business. We have experience the service attitude and level of the commitment that they give to any customers even those who spends nothing or those who spends thousands. They greet you and welcomes you with a SINCERE smile and happily welcomes you to their store. They claps their hand in the entrance of the shops to attracts customer, even including supervisors. Managers builds PR and talk to customers with a friendly, sincere attitude makeing you feeling that you are THE ONLY customer around. Staffs that passes by you will greet you with a smile and welcoming you to their store as well. When you were to leave their store, whether you purchases anything or nothing at all, they still says thank you and welcome again. Sometimes, they even wish you well in your health, good luck and have a good day ahead. OMG! Talking about service. They also do make some follow up calls to their customer, if they do have your number, once in a while.

Telecommunications company, making direct phone calls to their customer is not that pushy and friendlier than those back in home. Sometimes, even when you were to walk in any shopping complexes in KL, you wish to avoid contact, visually or physically, with those bankers that sells credit card and loans from a commercial or a consumer bank. They will use whatever way it takes to close your sales and make their day fruitful including weekends. They are those who do cold callings, to customers database, calling them and pesting them with the benefits and the need for them to buy the products from them. Etc Etc Etc and bla bla bla. I used to be a salesman and a financial advisor as well. I know the feeling of both sides, customers and the salesperson, and thus i know and understand the feeling of the salesperson and the shoppers/customers as well.

Well, at the end, i believe that no matter what kind of sales / retails business that we are into, the 1st thing that we as a seller have to fulfill 1st is the need to improve the customer service attitude, the only thing that differenciate us with our competitors. The flow of the way is, service 1st, sales 2nd. Not the vice versa as the old days. Some might find me annoying or stupid. Anyway, i think this thing called "service" is 1 of the most important areas in any companies if they are serious enough to be in it for long term.

Thus, i implore those of you who feels down, when you are unable to close any sales, please make sure that you have done your part 1st, the need to you to give a perfectionist service, to your customers 1st. The will only your days in front will be better. As a saying goes, the more you give, the more you will receive!

Randomness 2007 - Inner...

4 more days to go before i depart from Pudong airport in Shanghai ready to go back to South East Asia, back to Singapore and Malaysia. Been thinking about it last night. How fast time really passes us by, just felt like yesterday and still can imagine my Romeo and Ling sitting in the car with my sisters weeping and saying goodbye and waving to me while i go to Singapore for this job 2 months and 2 weeks ago. And now, its time for me to go back to renew my visa and use this opportunity to see them and love them.

I believe that i am really a traditional sense kinda of man, whom i still have in my heart no matter how open minded i say i am. I do think that i am a open minded man, to a certain extend, but in fact, my heart always works in the opposite and still have this feeling of a traditional man. I dunno why. It boils down to an individual's character and all the people on this globe is in fact the same when u strip of the outer layer of it. Layers deep within it, we all are just a bare animal who have instincts as well. We eat when we are hungry, we drink when we are thirsty, we like to be love even though our mouth and our mind might think other wise, we like to have fun and play even as we get older and we do a lot of things even as our mind thinks the otherwise. We are just back to our original inner self, just like a child. If we do have the chance without considering other facts and truths and responsibilities, you will actually give it a try and have some good jolly fun and happiness without regrets?

What does inner self really means? How do you interpret it? Do you understand or do you actually aware of it? The existance of the inner self and the image of the person that you have in your mind. Give you a simple example how your mind works. Everytime when you make any decision and choices that lies in front of you, there are always 2 voices or rather 2 different opinion that comes out contradicting each other in your mind. The positive and negative choices that you have to make, that you might assume its your feelings, or your heart that tells you, or your instinct that guides you, or bla bla bla and such. But infact, actually its just your inner self that voices out his/her opinion against your judgement my your higher self, your brain.

So its time for you to make a choice, listening to your logical brain, which make perfect sense but not interesting, or listening to your inner self, the child that can brings you happiness, enjoyment and rushs of adrenaline. The feeling sensations that makes you laugh and brings you joy and excited at the same time. Its the adrenaline of joy going through your blood making you feeling it, the pure 5 seconds of joy that fills your life and your inner self. The life of happiness and satisfaction with no regrets.

Hence, this post is to let you know and be aware that actually we do have choices that we can choose from, the logical or the feeling kinda choice. The decisions lies in your hands and in your head. Choose it wisely, the inner self or the logical brain. I wishes you to make the right and the best choice everyday in your life! :)

Boiling Pressure!

Today is really the worst day and the day that i can make myself to forget about. So many things happen, really stressful and funny stuff happens in my life in one fucking funny day. After thinking back of what that actually happen in the last 24 hours, i can giggle and laugh back at myself for what i've written in my blog. Its true and its the truth. I do felt like shit this afternoon. One comes after another shit. Now even at night i've step into more shit. Really. I felt funny.

My sister, my friend, my darling msn me and ask what happen until i am so fucking stress up today in the afternoon. Yes, they do concern about me. I'm happy about their concern showing them that i'm not alone and not that lonely in this lonely planet. As for my darling, i've read her message and felt very concern after reading it. She is very lonely right now with Romeo. She suffers alone, all alone without me being there to help and console her. She crys and weeps thinking about me and what did actually went wrong in our life. I am and was thinking that all the time as well. I sometimes, even as a man and the pillar of the family also can't take that heavy stress and the pressure of love and emotions. We are really a creature of habits and emotions. It is hard to control your emotions and it takes a great deal of courage and iron-willed actually to do that. Its the sheer determination and the iron heart to be able to overcome emotional stress. I do hope that my darling will be able to withstand the pressure and the stress currently.

I do have my own set of problems as well. Pressure from work, pressure from monetary issue, pressure of responsibility as a family man, fatherly pressure, as an eldest son pressure and etc. Pressure to succeed in the real life in terms of career, as a person both emotionally and physically, financially pressure to escape from rat race and hope that i can actually escape from it. So fucking many pressure and stress to take in at all times. All responsible man will have that pressure from these environment as well. How do they actually take it all in at the same time? Really wish i can as strong as them.

At the same time today during eve of midnight, received some sms's from my darling back from home in home country. I felt disturb and felt a great deal of compassion, sympathy, empathy, love and responsibility for my own family, Romeo and myself as well. How does it come to this event that is happening in my life right now? I am confused and lost my direction in searching and working for money, the M word that is used to solve gazilions of problems that i'm facing right now.

I have seen a feng shui master before during end of last year. Went together with my wife in hoping to search for an answer that can gives us enlightment and clues that can make my future looks brighter. She went on and told me that the current situation that i'm facing right now is a rough patch in my life right now. She went on and says that i'm just like a Mercedes Benz S class series going through a rocky road right now. I believe that my life will be better very soon. I believe in that, and at least i have a hope that can gives me some shining enlightment when the times goes dark.

I am hoping for the best and i will work for it, being a proactive and a doer, i believe that times ahead of me will be better if i keep on focusing on my dreams and goals. I can make it happen and i believe in myself that i can do it!

Freaking Fucking Pissed Off

Even until now, i am still feeling fucked up, the feeling of being played in multi directions with no ending and end in sight. I do not know how to end this fucking feeling. Perhaps, i am lost and i do not know what is the next step to do. Just confuse and is freaking confusing. Still have this damn feeling of shit in me. Dunno why. Maybe i'll proceed again to this cafe and eat the shit whole lot of ice-cream to cool myself down and smoke like chimney again. Feeling of eating ice-cream to cure this soreness in my heart and just let the ice melt in my mouth and have the brain freezing sensation.

Fucker! Hate the fucking feeling. Now is just hoping that this funny freaking feeling of fucked up will fade away soon. Hopefully when i finish my ice-cream later, everything will be better. With all the stress at office to out performed the expectation, responsibilities and duties to be done, added on summore with the fucking manager and the shitty liar whom we thought we could trust, with my family small little problems, missing my family and Romeo as well, time shortage when i go back to Malaysia next week for all the things to do and all the time allocated to do all these things in the time frame that is so tight, hell no wonder i'm so fucking stress up this freaking fucking week. My schedule for the next month is solid book with works and activities, even with no time for any error or mistakes. Shit! Can even have some time to relax or let go some stress except on weekend.

I'm really looking forward to this weekend and have a enjoyable and relaxing time. Time whereby stress is less and i am able to let go of work, except i have to work this Saturday for replacement day. Shit less 1 day to rest and straight to work next Monday. And i have to arrange all my schedules to fit into the already super tight week. Money is not a pleasure for me also for now. Financial is very tight with no rooms for extra expenditure nor i am be able to do anything or buy anything expensive for the next 3 months. This is how tight my situation is.

Really looking forward to let go and relax and just cool down. Imagining sitting on a lazy chair by the beachside, during sunset, with winds chilling blowing at your body and face, listening to the sound of waves rocking against the rock and sands giving me ultimate pleasure to relax and chill out. Holding at my hand is a cuppa of ice latte, wet and cool. I can really imagine the scenario and the cooling effect on me right now.

Really hoping that this freaking fucking shitty shit feeling will flame off soon enough. Fuck those fuckers!

Ciao...

Bad Week Bad Day

I am so fucking piss off right now. Really fucking piss off and fucking day. Fucking week and fucking day! Really a bad week for me this fucking whole week especially today. Fucking stupid! All came out to my shockingly disturbing mind just jolted me to wake up and make me piss off after that. One lead after another and all wham to me by noon. Sometimes, when things does get tough, it really does. I believe i'll be allright soon enough. Its just that i wanted to vent my anger out. I am a person who do not like to keep the fucking frustration and fucking stress in my heart and my mind.

Firstly, 1 stupid manager from my company, which does not have any nice image in my company, do something stupid and make a lot of out staff angry. He is in charge now for being all the other top guys is not in, some went back to Singapore and some went to outstation for work. This stupid manager makes us guys to move steel metal cupboard by carrying from 3rd floor to the ground floor. Enough said, why can't he engaged the logistics company employee to move it since they will be coming to pick up the cupboard. Approximately 8 cupboard were carried down from 3rd floor to the ground floor. We are professionals and as an employee as well, we have not much other choices but to listen to him. The fucker does the worst. We carried all and at the end, what did i saw? He is just standing there ordering people doing it and he just chat happily with some girls while we are moving the fucking heavy steel metal cupboard. He smiles and not even say a word of thank you to all of us. It was me, who actually thank the guys who help us both to move the cupboard. Those volunteers when i called them to help. It was me, not the fucking manager who says thank you and give an appreciation sign to my fellow colleagues. Btw, he is just a manager, not even the VP, CEO, country manager or even the boss of the company. Enough said. Fuck it!

Then, after lunch, he call us again to move the cupboard from ground floor back up to 3rd floor again saying that after a discussion with out VP, they come to agreement to keep the cupboard back to its original position. The 3rd floor. WTF! Fucking hell, why don't he discuss with the VP 1st before ordering us to move the cupboard. 2 times work and sweating hell. And we are forced to move back the cupboard back to 3rd floor. I can just ignored it. Its not my job anyway, but if i were not to help, my colleagues will be doing it also for him. I can't be just sitting there and watch my colleague do the job while i am sitting there, right? So, out of frustration, i help to carry at well. Making me drench in my own sweat with my working suit. Fucker! I cursed him in Cantonese while i am carrying the cupboard. Fucking shit Fucking hell manager!

Then the 2nd fucking thing, an associate whom i consider friend to me lied to me so smoothly and even show no regrets nor any signs of feeling bad. I got to know this when one of my friend told me the whole story just to inform me of what actually did happen. I got the extra news and extra information from my friend contradicts of what did i hear. After of hearing what did actually happens versus what of what the fucking liar told me, i was shock but i was cool at the beginning. Not feeling too good at that particular time and only after when the whole news sank into my mind, i did only piss off with the whole fucking behaviour thing with this particular person. Fucking liar lies behind my back and lies so smoothly that i might be cheated until my friend told me about it. Fucking shit and fucking person.CB!

Really do not know what this fucking person is up to. Messing around with us and twisting the whole fucking story and lies lies and nothing but a bunch of lies. Fucking fedup with all the fucking hell lying at behind my back. CB! Really making me piss off right now! Only Paul Oakenfold now is chilling me out with his techno and bass pumping at both of my ears. Really feeling like taking revenge but i know it does not going to bring any good if i move and take that step. Nothing good except making me feeling better, which is momentarily only. Rather i prefer just keep quiet and see whats the next step from this fucking hell liar. Just see what is the next fucking step from this fucker. Anything more, i will fuck this fucker upside down and making sure that this fucker will not have a good time. Shitty fucker.

Enough fucking shit for the day. Plus, i hate it when i really spoiled my mood for the weekend, which is tomorrow. Thinking of wanting to relax and go with the flow, chilling out. Until all these fucking events happens on Friday. Let my pressure to go 1st by today before i goes back home later. At least i hope that later and tomorrow will be a better day.

Working Ethics and Culture

Talking about working culture and working ethics. How do you define or how to you view the indifferent issue of working in the corporate environment? Some like it safe and secure, some like it challenging and be paid more, some like the freedom the organization provides, some like the retirement planning the company provide when their reach their peak, some like the environment of working, some just don't really think about it as long as their monthly salary is paid on time, some like it fast and furious, some treat it as a part of their life, some just do it becoz they like it so much, so just do it to make end meets and some treat it like a pressure with no end. Lots and lots of endless reasons and much more to say if there is.

Working in a international corporate environment will definitely be different with working with a smaller scale version of a local company. Working for government agencies and working for private companies is totally different in culture. The work ethics and the working attitude is different due to the culture that exist long time. If there are any changes to be done, a very strong, charismatic leader must be in place for any real changes to be made.

But certain aspect of working attitude and human character is the same whatever it goes, wherever you might be working either with an organization or on your own. Characters such as hardworking, good working attitude, team builder and team player, tolerance, pro-active, independent, willing to go the extra mile and looking at the bigger picture instead of all the smaller details that is not that important yet. I learn this through the hard way and by listening to all the advise and by understanding the view from the top, the view of the top management guys.

So perhaps its time to evaluate and to ask yourself this simple question, " Am i looking far enough and big enough?" Enough said.

Politics Player

I do not like office politics. The backstabbing, mind playing, names brought up for bad discussion, top guy leg polishing and etc is not really my cuppa of tea. I don't mind simple and little bit of talking discussion here and there for yourself and your team. Purposes of bringing up your profile, image of the team, being the one to look at from the management because of your effort and knowledge, blank chatting of teammates for the purposes of fun and humour minus the sensitive issue of course, joking around with office collegues to raise the morale of fellow employees and perhaps more as long they serve a positive purpose.


They are people who are grown and groomed or shaped by conditions they themselves are not aware of, they backstabs and politics around naturally. They do not feel anything nor they felt they did anything wrong. They are just naturally shaped to be that way, politic players, whether they are employees, co-workers, businessman, politicians, neighbours and etc, and they themselve sometimes are not aware that they are political players.


It is just that i hate it when i am involved in the feud or in the middle of it. I am a simple guy who wishs nothing more than having a good environment to work in. A place whereby, you can focus and concentrate my energy onto something more important, to excel in my job and task in hand. But life is not a garden of roses, rather a garden of roses and thorns. You have to be smart and be aware of the surrounding, be aware of thorns and look for the rose. Not by looking for the rose and neglecting the thorns. You will be hurt and you will be injured, mentally especially if you are not a politics player. Be smart, and be aware, there are devils out there. Lots of it, in fact!


I think with my experience and exposure in the corporate world, business world and the society, i am able to spot these players effectively. You have to be aware and play the game correctly even though you may not like it, but its a fact of life. If you ignore it, you will suffer from it sooner than later, and if you are aware of it and decided to play it safely and correctly, maybe you will excel with it. I implore you to be aware of it. Coz there are worms and devils out there who dresses Prada and Gucci or Armani suits and they smile at you innocently and stabs behind you when you are not around.

Tormentation of Pain

I am confused. I am lost and i dunno what to do. I have lost faith and lost my direction. I am feeling like a little boy lost in the streets with all eyes looking everywhere else except me. People just walks by ignoring each other and do not even give a shit about anything else anymore. What do you do when you reach this situation and this crappy times?

There's nothing much i can do right now but to get myself out of this shit hole i've dig for myself for the last couple of years. 5 years to be exact. Sometimes, the stress is unbelievable and it just keep on piling on me and onto my chest making me dizzy and having a hard time to breathe. Sleep is a no-no when it comes to that time. Your brains and chest just goes haywire and everything seems negative. Destructive it seems and it does.

What do you do when u face unbearable stress and unhappiness? Do you run away from it all, do you face it and solve the problem logically like a man or do you just sit down at your couch facing the TV holding a bottle of beer looking like a zombie? I don't know. It maybe seems that i am running away from my problems, but i believe that i am facing it and making a huge sacrifice as the pillar of strength of the family. Being away from your family and son when they are so young and infant, for me, is a huge sacrifice. I'm having a difficult times ahead and i am currently. Maybe its payback after years of comfortable living. I don't know. I am lost.

Perhaps someone kind enough could share some of my grief and my burdens right now. I am feeling down. I don't know what else whould i do. The only thing that is consoling me right now, is by listening to songs, that touch my heart by its catchy tunes. I am sad. Perhaps tomorrow will be a better day. I am looking forward to it. Please, Please, Please stop tormenting me.

Fuck it all. I shall be strong and i am determine to do that. I am going to bounced back even stronger after this.

Yes! I am going to be!

Choose to be Happy!

Todays Wednesday and i'm really feeling up and down, somes feeling plateau, and i dunno what i should be feeling. The only consolation is to remember them, my family from the wonderful memories when we are together all the time, being apart really have a big impact on families. Remembering my little cute Romeo and my darling, whom send me an SMS this morning saying things that i felt badly about. Why the fuck that i am in this fucking situation. Hell knows. All fuckup and all goes haywire! Really feeling bullshit now!

I really want to forget about all the unhappy memories and move on from there. At least, i can and be able to concentrate on my job in hand and make my money for my family and for all the debt and the mistakes done last time. Really a bomb and feeling the heavy of stress lying on top both of my shoulders.

Why does the world have to be this way? The truth and the world is a bad place. A place whereby if you are not ready for it, it will just crush you mentally and emotionally without giving a shit about your feelings and your situation. People i know, lots of them are in this fucking kinda world and fucking situation. Unless you are born into the world of golden spoon, things might turned out better for you. Might be worst with all the world looking at you to fall. Fucking world!

And the least i can do for myself is to listen to my fav tunes and forget all about it and just be strong and iron-willed. I need to be strong and i have forgotten what i wrote just now. Memories erased and i've moved on. Better to feel happier and enjoy my time rather than to collapsed into devastation and negativeness of this world. At least, i will feel better and be happy. Thats the way i think everyone should live their life, full with happiness and enjoyment with the inner being feeling satisfied. At least you will not regretting living your life.

Thus, i always tell people when they felt sad or feeling down, they are people whose situation is worst then us, for instant people in Iraq, people living in between the feud of Isreal and Palestinian and etc. We can choose to be happier or choose to be sad. At least we have a choice!

I currently i choose to be happy. I hope you choose to be happy as well. God Bless!

Randomness 2007 - Empathy

I believe that understanding and empathy is the key to peace and everything we do. War, conflicts, angryness, arguement, misunderstanding, fightings, politics and etc is the end results of the lack of common understanding or the lack of empathy. I'm not saying understanding and empathy is all it requires, but rather it is the beginning step for everything, from discussions to the end of war. It is the key element to peace.


Lets come to a small start, heated arguement starts from office or back home due to the lack of understanding or the lack of empathy by the both party during a discussion. They talk and talk about issues that needed to be resolved and they do it without a goal or an agenda to come out with both parties to have a winning end. Hence, arguements and confrontations set flair and to make it worst, lack of common understanding and empathy will make it even bigger. Everyone comes out injured and comes out without an answer or any satisfactory results. Waste of time!


Lets start with ourself 1st when comes to this view. Prepare for a heaty discussion, get an agenda for discussion and with a mentality for both parties winning at the end and try to be understanding and be a little bit more empathy towards the other side. Sometimes, they have their own point and reasons as well. I believe certain things happen for some reasons, whether you like it or not and whether you prefer it or not. Reasons for some decisions or something that were to happen might just be happening for some bigger reasons and bigger picture that you and me would not understand. Right? Simple scenario, why would Bush still be wanting to send more troops to Iraq despite so many objections from opposition parties vetoing for it? Maybe he have a bigger reasons. Anyway, its not for me to decide or make any decisions about this issue. Out of my range and out of my rank. Just hoping that "the reason" is for the goodness of the long term for mankind. I hope! *keeping my fingers crossed*


Next time, try to view from the other's point of view and step into the shoes of others. You might get some understanding what people is going through and what is running into their mind. You might even come out a victor and be smiling about it!

Randomness 2007 - Mondays!

I personally thinks that Monday is a double-edge sword day. This day can brings 2 sides out of a person, and it can be constructive or destructive. You can make it a good week by starting today brilliantly or you can make it worst by being negative today. Some people choose to be negative inspite of a good day, some choose to be happy and make it the best out of the worst day of life even bad circumctances falls upon them, some choose to let the day decides for them and some smiles even after they have met with unfortunate events. :)

Choose your day and make the best our of it. Bad things, unlucky things, bad omen happens everyday, set your brain and mind and make it work constructive for you and you might find a gem end of the day. I smile everyday even with all the stress lies upon my shoulder and i try to make the best out of it. I do understand for ladies it will be particularly hard if they are having the PMS of the month, and they can hardly joke or even smile about. Thats why it is more important to have a good company of friends that make your day goes smiling and having the laughter or the joke of the century! Smile my dear!

Although today is a little bit of tiring and i have to clean up the toilet and bla bla bla, i do smile and i do it over a cuppa of nice ice coffee and a ciggy at the tip of my fingers. I inhale softly the smoke and rest my mind over the night and cools the mind. What a wonderful world! Feel the positive vibe around me and get the energy from the surrounding events and everything that happens. I tend to like it simple and have a stress free mind rather the clouding my brain with all the stress, thinkings and plannings currently. I personally thinks that minds works best when u can free your mind from all the stress and burdens. Keep things simple and you can concentrate more on the things that matters when you need it to be. Thats why a lot of people enjoy yoga classes in a gym or fitness center, they teach you breathing techniques, correct posture and movements inline with the being, and free your mind and controling your mind whenever you wanted it to. Its great and its fantastic. Try it! It can be mind-blowing!

No matter what happens to you or whatever that could or have been, get over it and live your life to the fullest and enjoy every moment of it. Thats the way i view my life and thats how i think it should be. Try it and perhaps you will find the peace within you! May you be happy always. I pray for you.

:)

Chinese Valentines Day!

Today is Sunday and the date is Aug 19th 2007. Today in Chinese calender is 7 month 7 day and today is the celebration of Valentines Day in the whole China. Roses and presents is selling like hot cakes all around town in all around China. Restaurants, cafes, hotels and other places that is suitable for any any couples will be packed like tuna i think.

Based on the general population of youth age ranging from 19 to 29, there will be tens of millions of people and couples will be celebrating their annual love today. I am doing a general calculation of the massive expenditure of economics tonight, roses @ 20RMB/each x 10Mil young couples in big cities = RMB200Mil worth of roses sold tonight equivelent to approximately RM90million. No wonder everyone wants a piece of the Chinese pie. Its astonishing. its astounding, its ludacrious! The wonders of the scale of economics. I saw on the News channel yesterday night, roses prices have double up especially for this occasion.

I think tonight if we were to have dinner with my bunch of gangs comprises of all males species, we can hardly find any where to eat. *Maggi is running in my mind now* Dunno where to go eat yet for the night. Hopefully, its not instant noodles again cause i just have it for my lunch. With all the people in China celebrating the ever most amazing, wonderful Valentines day today, i consume 2 meals of instant noodle in a single day. Thinking of it, its horrendous, it boring and it is stupidifying. Perhaps i'll have a candle light dinner in KFC then. Inserting and lighting a candle into the soft bread/muffin and wallop my drumstick vigorously. Haha!

Enjoy your Sunday today and wish your love ones a Happy Chinese Valentines Day!

Happy Chinese Valentines Day to you, Darling! :)

Randomness 2007 - Crazy Day!

Finally, the internet connection at my home sweet home is activated! Yes! I'm god bless and its finally over the waiting for such a long long long time. I can view and update my blog from home, i can do some home video conferencing with my Ling and my sweet cute "disaster" Romeo! :) Yeah, i guess i'm really lucky man blessed with good things happens in my life. I appreciate it and i enjoy every moment of it.

I just came back from a meal at KFC having a localized Zinger and do some shopping as well. Bought some clothings, pants, shirts, instant noodle, fresh milk and some tit bits as well. Well, guys and more guys staying in 1 apartment need just some basic food and some drinks to fulfill their thirst and quench for liquids after a sporty sweaty session. We don' t cook unless it is absolute necessary till to the last desperate moment when all runs out and no other choices available. We prefer to slouch at the couch lazing around watching our fav sports channel.

Now currently they are showing the live Badminton world championship in KL, Shanghai Masters series snooker and the ever favourite Tennis Masters series in US featuring Roger "God-Like" Federer. My fav sports player, Roger, and i just like the view of him doing his 1 handed back hand swing shot. Cool! If only i am able to do that ;P

*Was wondering whether i can do that as well*

So what do you do today at this lovely sunny Saturday afternoon? Going anywhere or doing anything interesting? I think it is best for any of us to really enjoy our moments with our love ones, parents, family, dearest and those love ones. Cherish every moment right now together enjoying the laughs and smiles, while filling our heart with happiness and satisfaction, without regreting any moment later that you might have wasted. We slug through our weekdays with chores, responsibilities, works and prefections to our work in hoping to get a better future in regards of money, career and assets. I believe when it comes to weekend, when you are able to at least let go some of the stress back in the office, cherish the time and laughter with your love ones, instead of stressing what should have been and will be next Monday. Yeah, you need to plan, its true. At least live your life 50/50 balance to your family as well. Blah Blah Blah. Talking too much. ;P

Just enjoy the readings and enjoy your time! If you do really have time, go hang out and do whatever you pleases your inner being. Read some books or mop the floor for your wife/massage leg for your husband.*switch to your suitable gender* :)

I think i'm going to watch my sport channel right now and have my enjoyable time!


Cheers!

Twice Trouble Shitty

OMFG! I hate it! I hate it so damm much. The stupid dunno what type of government or the authorities have decided enough is enough and banned wordpress blog as well. What the hell! Initially, they ban blogspot. I still have some wordpress to read on. But since few days ago, i can't view wordpress as well. I dunno whether wordpress is down or any other things that might have happen. Shit!

I did thought that it might be server down or whatsoever. But i did thought about it, can it be so coincidence and so accurate that 2 particularly famous blog is down or i am unable to read them both at the same time? Same with blog.co.uk. Yes, i've tried it and it doesn't load as well. Well, fuck it! Had enough of it and i think i'm going to vend out all my frustration here at my blog so you will know how i feel. Haha! I'm a soft man, did i mention that previously?

Then, double pile of shit. My MSN got problem and a lot of messages that i've type can't be delivered to the receipient. Twice shit! I type type type and then the message can't be delivered making me have to copy the words and repaste back it again and hopefully it can work the 2nd time. What the heck happen! Shitty and double shitty! So many shitty things happen in 1 single day. Please "qu qu ni" please, enough liao lor. I want my rest of the day to be better and have some reasons to be happy about.

Maybe going for a pool session later after dinner with some guys here. Nothing much to do. I can't consume alcohol currently due to my higher than normal liver enzymeas. Have to keep in under control for medical and work reasons. So most probably will be just hanging out at pool table and have a coke. Smoke is ok, just keep under control.

Someone mentioned before yesterday night during dinner session saying that i've change from very reserved to outspoken from the day i reach here till today. From introvert to extrovert today. I think 1 of the many reasons is due to that, i prefer listening more than talking and i'm very outspoken when i get friendly and get comfy with the people around me. Funny, heh?

Now waiting for another 1 more hour before i proceed back home to have some rest. Feeling tired and sleepy. Hehe. Yeah! Not that particularly tired or exhausted but more to sleepy not having sleep for the last few days.

Hopefully everything later will be smooth and not as shitty as what happens in the morning!

Love Characters!

What kind of person are you? I think i am definitely a feeling and eye-sighty kinda of person. Some people received information into the brain matter by smell, some by seeing and visualizing, some by experiencing and remember the feeling and some by touching and remembers the feeling as well. Well for me, its more into visualization and feeling. I'm more into 50/50 between them.

The above relates to this following statement. What is your preferential type of feeling towards the opposite sex? Man vs Woman. I'm more of a sensual person. I know that i'm not that romantic nor i'm that particularly that much imaginative when it comes to love. Btw, just to clear the doubts, i'm not French, just a simple M'sian man who knows what type of person he is. I know i'm a sensual person. I need to feel and i touch and visualize to feel.

Some individuals, guys or ladies, is or perhaps are more romantic in a certain ways tend to do some common things, they write physical letter to express their feelings, they do little little things such as making stars and keep in transparent bottle, they make swans from colorful paper and announce their love via this way.

Those imaginative is highly creative creatures and they will surprised you in anyway available. They show up and appear in a very imaginative fashion. For instance, they might just appear in the middle of no where during your lunch dropping by just for a kiss on the cheek. Or they might drop by in the middle of the night to your home just to say i love you. These are highly imaginative person. They are and they will continue to surprise you.

Those who are sensual is feeling kinda people. They express their love through touching. They are into sensuality and they look into your eyes making you feels that the world belongs to just the both of you. They like to hold you hand in a certain ways that make you feel comfortable and yet it is not too hard and yet not too soft. They touch your face and play with your hair caressing your smooth silly hair running down their fingers. They touch your leg below the table to show their feelings. They are feeling type of person that express their love through touching.

I believe i belongs to the latter and somehow only little to romantic. Maybe 20% imaginative and 80% sensuality. I still remember the 1st time i met my darling. Those that happens and what i describe above really does happen. I am a sensual person. Haha!

*Blushing*

It is just that different people have different type of preferences. Some might prefer sensual, some love romatic guys, some like it imaginative. Hence, i believe when we "clicks", the real meaning is that you found the initial type of person that suits your preference. For instance, you prefer a romantic person to be your love one, you wish that he can show your the stars and he write letters to you and talks to you in a very romantic kinda settings and words, and when you found 1 person who actually does that, you believe that you have found the one. It make sense, doesn' it?

Which type of person and character do you think you belongs to? :)

Go figure ;)

Day Before Weekend

For the last few days, i was having some sort of throat problem. It is pain and it is sour at the top of my throat between my inner nose and my upper throat. Dunno how it happens and it is definitely not comfortable. I think it is most probably due to few reasons why my throat is feeling dry and itchy.

Maybe it is due to the cold and dry aircon to blows directly at my face when i sleep soundly. Maybe it is due to the inhaling the smokes of the local ciggies that is dryer and not as moist as our local and SG ciggies. Lots and several reasons that might have happened. I just hope that it is not for long. Can't stand the feeling of burning and itchiness and dryness at the back of your neck I bought some throat smoothing candies yesterday, Halls, and hopefully it will helps. Yeah! Hopefully...

Today is Friday and its a day to weekend. Thank god! At least got to rest at home and do my home and personal stuff. I have to do my laundry and do my ironing. Stacks of cloths have to be iron. Bathrooms to be wash and floors to be mopped and to be clean. Maybe i am hoping that when my friend comes back from M'sia, he will do it for us! Haha!

Wednesday's badminton session was exhausting and tiring. My legs was dead tired. Can't move around and feels sour as well. But nevertheless, it was fun and it is sweaty. Some of them continue with a session of volleyball and basketball. But i was dead tired. Maybe due to the lack of sleep and lack of appropriate rest. Haha!

I finally saw Romeo just now after more than 1 month. He's getting thinner and taller now. Going to a big boy and big guy soon. I just hope that time will slow down and let me enjoy every single moment of it while seeing my Romeo to grow. Just miss him so much and makes my heart soften. But i am strong and i am iron-willed. ;)

What do you do this coming weekend? Let loose, stay home, rest and relax, sporty sweaty sports day or even clubbers night? Plentiful of things can do. I plan to clean my house and maybe just enjoy myself by strolling at the walking street in the city center as the weather is nice. Nice windy during the night and not that hot summer night.

Whatever you do, may you have fun and live your life and spend your time with no regrets! Enjoy!

Real World!

I was talking to my fellow friends the other night during a cup of ice latte and a pot of oolong tea. We talk and talk and we came to a discussion about the issue of capitalism and democratic society. It was an intrigued subject yet a messy and sensitive subject, i must say. Different people have a different opinion and different view on these 2 matter. Some view it neutral, some hate it, some goes with it, some like it, some don't really cares about it and some even do not know what it is.

I have my own view regards to the above. Whatever i wrote here is purely on my own opinion and its not necessary the correct nor it is wrong. Its just purely my own opinion and view. I was brought up from my childhood to an adult now believing in democratic society. I believe in justice and fairness. I believe the world of capitalism brings good and benefits to the ever growing society. Perhaps the world is just too messy and too complicated. Really.

There are always 2 sides to a coin and 2 views that contradicts each other. It exists and it needs each other. It is not a matter of whose right and wrong but a matter of view. For example, a car collide with another car causing an accident. Whose fault it is? I believe both also plays a part in the accident, it is just whether we are aware of it and whether we wanted to accept it as partly of our fault as well. Well, no one wants to be a loser and no one wants to lose. It hurts our ego and our "being" being on the wrong side and we tends to justify and reasoning it to make ourselves feels better. Ain't it true?

The above scenario is just a simple example of the world currently. To make it more realistic, just replace the scenario with real-life issue, terrorism, religion, communism and etc. Just imagine all the possibilities. Billions of outcome and billions of variables. Non-stop action and non-stop negativity.

How about the world of capitalism? Do you like it because it works your way as you have achieve something out of it? Or do you hate it due to your failure to capitalize on it? Or do you hate it so much as it widens the gap between you and the rich, that you can hardly breathe and catch up with the rest of the bees? Multiples of view and multiples of opinion. I personally feels that capitalism brings more good than harm. I go with the flow and i believe this system will enable me have a dream at least so to speak. The dream that one day things might actually be better if you work and plan for it. Rather than to live without any hope, that my future looks bleak and out of control from my hands. At least, i can sleep and live my life with small pinch of soft hope that my future is still bright and energizing!

Lots of ideas and lots of opinions. Sensitive issues and touching stories. This is how i would describe it. The real world of the truth. Be aware of it, live your life simple and be positive inspite of all the news and negativity that happens around us today. If you were to be borned into a world of peaceful place to live, be proud and be grateful. Sometimes, there are people who are born into a war-torn or chaotic environment that they themselves have no choices in their life but to fight for survival only. Imagine Middle East, Iraq, Afghanistan and etc. I'm having a soft heart even when i'm typing this out.

But, things can be better and events can be contructive if you make your mind to be. Smiles and positivity is there and they do exist in the world. Achieve, plan and work for your goals and dreams. As a famous saying goes from our own Mr.Tony Fernandes, CEO of AirAsia, "You only live once. Dare to dream and make it happen".

You might come out a victor! I wish you all the best and best of luck!

Coffee Lounge

Here i am taking a break from my routine and my hiatus, surfing for blogs as my mind wanders around thinking about plans for tonight. Work is busy and somehow routinic. Bored you might say, hence the need to a ciggy during urinal breaks. Wonderful pleasure and satisfaction guaranteed and the only thing that is missing is a partner at crime to sneak out and smoke at our pleasure.

I am now listening to Hed Kandi as usual when i am typing this blog. My friend from Phillipines just now intrude me and ask me whether i'm available tonight to have a cuppa of coffee at a nice lounge we found out recently. Nice place, i added and nice venue to hang out and to smoke as well. Our plan is to go out in a gang of few person to this coffee lounge and chill out after we have our scrumptous dinner. If it is a nice plan, why not? Chill out and listens to some nice tunes and relax. Ultimate way to relax and release my stress!

Some people like to drink liquor, some like to shop, some like to eat, i prefer to eat ice-cream and a bitter glass of large ice coffee with no sugar. Makes my day goes alive. I just prefer and like the aroma of the richly taste coffee beans. Due to that, i seldom drink any mochas as they taste chocolaty and sweet. Triple shot espresso sounds like my cuppa of coffee.

I've been to this coffee lounge before and i like the environment in there. Nice cozy place, expensively assembled decor with nice wooden color sofas, cute cozy lights and splits into 3 levels. Extremely nice and the best i have been so far in ZJG, China. The toilet itself is also nice decorated and renovated. Polished tiles, nice standout basins and nice smell, what else can you ask for? If they were to convert this lounge to a club, i think i'll like very much in there. The only next question remains is how much do they charge for entrance and for the drinks? *my mind wanders*

I heard from my friend, he just came back from TianJin, that he has been exploring the streets in TianJin the last weekend. The discos in TianJin does not charge any cover-charge for entrance. They only charge when you order any drinks from the bar. A bottle of beer cost him RMB35, which is less than SGD7 if you were to convert it. Just miss the disco time. Blinking lights, booze, ciggies and sweat. Such a nice mix!

Farker! Hate it on Monday!

Internet Ineffectiveness

For the whole weekend, i wasn't able to access to internet from my home. Dunno for whatever damn reasons, i thought the connection is bad and something is wrong with the network. But, apparently what i figure out is that we might have miss out in paying the monthly telecom payment for the internet broadband connection. Maybe that is the reason why in the 1st place i can't log into the net.

Same thing happen today, Monday, in the office. OMG! What the shit happen? Still can't access to the internet. We called into the IT administrator in our office to solve it out. They managed to get us online so that we can get all our emails and tons of others by lunch time. Phew! Finally, at least i can surf the net and download emails from our webmails server. At least, i can also do some blogging :P

What did you do in the last weekend? My schedule is pretty tight and have a lot of activities going on on Saturday and Sunday as well. Was pretty exhausted and not having enough rest for the last 2 days. Weekend is supposed to be a chill out day for me. At least after a whole damn week of heavy workload and works needed to be done. I thought that i can at least a have decent rest in home on Sunday before proceeding to work on Monday. I was wrong. Apparently i need to come back to office on Sunday for the reason of Feng Shui.

A feng shui master calculated that we should be starting to work on this particulat Sunday rather than Monday due to some chinese calender calculation. It is better for our Chi or Qi. Some i have to drag myself back to the office, not to mention that i'm sleepy, to go back to office. Not that bad in the beginning, just the 4 of us at the office hanging around and open our notebook and do something. We left at 5pm and go back straight to home. Internet is down the that time, Sunday, and we weren;t able to do much in the office. Just do some cleaning up and "pretends" that we start works on the Sunday itself.

I think i'll make my time useful in the office now. I'm drowzy and feeling damn sleepy to be exact. Eyes closing and hands typing. Maybe i'll go for a smoke and makes my blood move faster with the nicotine and adrenalin. Need that.

Thats all for now. Wish me luck not to sleep and move my head up and down in the office.

Ciao!

Romeo

This is my cute little Romeo! What do you think? Is he cute or what. Miss him so much and miss him a lot. Miss him calling me BaBaBa. Just the cutest boy in the world.

He smiles a lot and he is playful. He has 12 teeth now and he is going to be 11 months in 8 more days. Just miss him too damm much!

*My heart is soft now when i think of my family and my cute little romeo* Hopefully things will work out fine and work out in the best ways for all of us.

Tantalizing Thursday

Today i'm tired and perhaps feeling sick and unwell. My legs and my thighs is tired and feels sour. You know the feeling of tiredness and hot around your legs that happen to you when you sick and have a fever. Little bit of sleepy as well. Too much badminton last night perhaps. Jumping around here and there for 2 hours in the stadium court. Plus some extra session with volleyball and basketball as well. How not to get tired? My legs is giving way even now i'm sitting at my place. Felt tiring but feels good as well. Being able to sweat it out at least once a week is vital to me now. Maybe it happens to me due to that i am weak and having air-con to blow at me after a sweaty session last night.

Currently, i'm listening to something softer. Mandarin songs to be exact, Jay Chou - Fa Ru Xue (Snow like hair). I just like a couple of his songs, melodic with soft tunes with a little touch of R n B to his tunes and songs. Although i have no idea what is he singing and the meaning of the lyrics of his songs. Perhaps i can learn a bit if i were to ask around for some translation. Just like his tunes and this song particular now. Feeling tired and unwell.

I was having a late dinner late night last night at a cafe outside my house. I was having a nice plate of curry chicken rice in a claypot serve with steamed egg, kangkung veggies and etc. Sipping my favourite ice coffee, served chilled with 2 ice cubes, taste bitterish and heavy aroma of coffee scent. Ermm oooo wahh! The nice smell of the java coffee beans that you would stop your actions and dos just for that moment of enjoyment. Heaven!

Same as the weather here as well. Yesterday is th 1st day of Autumn according to my friend here, perhaps Chinese calender, which i do not mind due to the soft wind blowing at you when you walk around. I was walking to this cafe and i stop my movement at 1 time during the walk. The sensation feeling of wind blowing across your body and your face with winds having to move your hair making me feel like heaven at one time. Such a lovely moment! I enjoy it and i love it even more if only i can hold my love 1 during that time. I hope the time will stop ticking at that moment itself. Such a fantastic soothing feeling being able to imagine you will be hugging your love one during tha good moment. Makes you remember and feel it for eternity. Heavenly!

I do hope tonight will be same again, with winds blowing at me and me imagining the happiness eternity moment together with my love 1. At least i am able to feel alive and full of positive love around me, even though the reality and truth maybe speaks otherwise. I want be to alive and full of love. It makes me soft and it makes me feels good. I wanted this feeling to be forever and for eternity.

This is for you my love :)

Roses are red, Violets are blue,
I love you so much and I love you forever too!


Muaks Muaks!


;) I am now feeling damm soft and vulnerable right at this moment now. Weeping at heart. Wish you were here and wish that you will understand what i am going through right now! ;)

Sad and Best Forgetten

I was a little bit sad and felt disappointed. Although i think from my head thats its logical and it make sense when you justified it, i still felt deep down in my heart that i deserved more. Haha. Small issue but was taken by surprised.

It is due to a certain claims which is not much, approximately RMB500, was not passed and rejected for a valid reason. It make sense if you were to think it properly and look at the bigger picture as advise by a wise man. So the moral of the story is that, look at the bright side always and look at the bigger picture. There are certain reasons why certain things cannot be done. It is not because it can't be done but rather not appropriate to be done. You know sometimes life sucks but there is nothing much you can do about it except to blog it and to rant it. And you get over it after that.

Life sucks! Move on!

What did i wrote just now? I forgot about it and seems that i have a shortage of memory these days. I can only remember sweet, good, meaningful, happy and delightful memories. Bad memories is nothing good except to be best forgotten. Haha! I'm going to enjoy the rest of my day and a good round of sweating of badminton later.

Sweat it out and smile it loud!

Hahahaha!

Hed Kandi Feels...

I was and i am having fun today. I listen to Hed Kandi repeatedly on my notebook linked directly from a blogsite. I swing my head and have some dance vibes right in the middle of office at the middle of the afternoon. The tunes are just unbelievable. Its fantastic and it feels good. Heart fluttering and heart beating tunes. Just makes me miss my wonderful days and moments in the D. Liquors, dice games, ciggies like chimneys, whiskeys with cokes and green teas, ice cube melting on my tongue in my mouth, bitter after taste of too much whiskeys while try to make the lovely dancing beat groove smoothly to my moving arms and legs. Lights and green lasers blinking shining in front of my eyes to the dance floor, where hundreds of clubbers, ravers, dancers, girls, groovers, technoraters, DJays and all cramped up together like a prawn salad in 1 single place where sweat mixed with pleasure and adrenaline. Feels damn Good! No Shit! Miss it!

I was having my 1st McD's meal of the week. A localized Big Mac version set meal with a medium fries and an ice mocha. I topped it up by adding a double cheese burger. Mouth watering and saliva drooling kinda meal. Its good at least to say i got my friend here who live by the name of "hamburger boy". Haha. He rather eat burgers than rice. Read my word, burgerS...Haha.

I really hate it when i can't read some of my favorite blogs just because they uses blogspot, which btw, banned by Chinese government. F**king bullshit! I can access to wordpress at least to read on and get some updates here and there. But not blogspot, my fav blog. I still can write and rant about anything i like in my blog, but yet i can't read my own blog using the conventional way. F**king pissed off!

How do you like it in summer? Or would you prefer the breaks in between, Autumn and Spring? 1 of my colleagues just told me that today is the 1st day of Autumn in China. I dunno. My 1st time in Autumn. Haha.Farkin freako from Malaysia who haven seen any snow except snow flakes in the fridge. Today is where the traditional chinese culture and customs eat watermelons. Don't ask me why. Its just that watermelon supposed to be cooling by nature. Try swallowing 2 watermelon and see the results yourself tomorrow. Toilet will be your residence and sleeping place.

Anyway, i have been feeling some changes to the weather this few days. Sunny with windy cooling breeze. Not as hot as 2 to 3 weeks ago. Feels good now and i do hope that this will become even better down the road. I'm a sweaty guy and have a nickname of raining man. Haha!

This Hed Kandi tunes really makes my heart pounding and my hands moved and grooved even as i am typing this blog. Feels good and feels great! Try to search it in radioblogclub and listens to it online. Great tunes! I think i really need a good drink and a good dance to release myself to the music one find day at the local D's here. Or perhaps in Shanghai whereby it is more happening and close later at the night.

Serious shit. I need to plan it out with my buddies and friends here. Xiantiandi, here i comes!

Randomness 2007 - Pleasant Day!

I am very pleased today at this very morning. Although the weather is still hot, but at least the wind is on our side. Winds blowing breezing across my cheek with a soft touch of cooling air. Its nice today. But of course as usual, morning is supposed to be pleasant. No breakfast as usual, only a glass of milk. Btw, they do sell sour milk here as well and in the same kinda look packing. Only mandarin characters can differentiate it. I am poor particularly at that area. Initially i thought i bought a spoilt milk. I was wrong. It is perfectly normal for the people here to drink sour cow milk. No joke!

I received a short message from my love one this morning while in the bus on the way to work. It was just a simple sms, but much can be derived from it. My brains starts moving with my heart starts to feel a heavy kinda feeling. Next month is Sept and it is particularly important for me. I have 3 libras in my family and with all birthdays in a short month, i've already started to think and tinker with and about my schedule even though i'm in China right now slogging through my work.

My work momentarily is still at light. Stress will built up soon in a matter of time. I've seen my colleague who handles the same thing at headquarter in SG. He was stress up all the time. It is not that my work is mind blowing or too challenging, it is just that there is so much to be done. There is no system that work in place yet and it is still messy here and there. Renovation is near completion at my office and i do hope i will get a nice cozy place with air-con blowing at my seat. I'm a hot person. I sweat profusely and i sweat sometimes for no reason like now. I am sweating lightly even at a air-conditioned room. I do exercise and play sports. Sweaty kinda of sports. Maybe i am weak or i am stress-up easily.

One of my friend actually to refer me as Raining man when i sweat. I sweat like water tank leaking but only starts from my head. I was thinking, izzit that i am having a lot of stress and tension, since i sweat from my head 1st. I dunno, maybe i drank a lot of water everyday. Or perhaps i am who i am. Different! Haha...

Theres one thing particularly i like about us, being Malaysian and Singaporean, Chinese looking people, in China. We are treated as special and we are greeted with a smile once we open our mouth and speaks. I can't help it but to feel that we are always treated with more respect and more attention is given to us especially after we speak. We are treated with more smile when we dine at restaurants, we are given special kinda look when we dine and we are different overall.

China's Chinese speaks only 1 common language and their own "kampung" slang kinda language. We are multi-lingual and we speaks several common language i.e. Mandarin, Cantonese, Hokkien, Hakka, English, Bahasa, and etc. When i am here having conversation with any local chinese here, the 1st thing they will ask you is, "you're not local right?" They presume that i am from either Korea or Hong Kong/Guang Zhou. Some who have been to overseas might goes further, guessing either from Korea or Malaysia/Singapore. And since majority of them do not even owns a passport, they do not know how it looks overseas.

We are treated as above average and we are given special treatment, or perhaps i thinks and feels too much. They just know that our pocket is deeper. Haha, maybe they are expecting to be given tips, since the locals here do not give any. We, foreigners, do really spend when we eat and dine, we do not look at the prices of the menu too much since that we know its almost the same as back home. We dine at clean and cozy places, and we eat a-lot, really a-lot compared to locals here. We order our food and drinks without hesitation about sugar level or cholestrol level nor the prices. The only thing that matters is the cleanliness and the quality of the food.

As a saying goes, Its not a matter of choice, it the only thing that matters, Good Food!

Haha...

Enjoy your day!

Randomness 2007 - Jokes!

I am particularly tired and exhausted for the last 2 working days. I could have manage to doze of in the bus if i wanted to. For the last 2 days, i have been not having peaceful and long sleep either. Maybe its just that i am getting older by each year and with the workload and stress that i'm taking in, it will definitely take a toll on my body. Ciggies, oily food, lack of physical sweating exercise, sweet stuff poured down my throat and booze last time during the last 10 years does not make any good either.

I felt tired. But i was positive and energetic when i need to. For example, during at night when the stress and workload was left at the office. Those who work really hards understands. You do not need to be sympathetic with me, just empathy will do.

I forgot what it feels like the last time i when to a cinema. It was at least 2 months back the last time i did went to a movie. They do not serve english speaking films here at my place. Even Transformers is shown in Mandarin. Can you imagine Optimus Prime talking in mandarin? OMG! Hahaha. That would be fun. But, just that i do not really understand fully the mandarin words. I'm particularly weak and poor in command of this language.

My sifu aka my next sitting friend is not here today. Do not know why. Maybe he fell sick and decided to call it a day. Perhaps he overwork yesterday, who knows. Just that suddenly, without him around in the office. It is more quieter and more peaceful, hahaha. Good jolly man! Full of jokes and stuff!

He once told me of a real story that happens to his friend. Here is how it goes, his name is Meng. He is obese and fat in fact. One fine day, when he was walking by this street near Geylang, Singapore, he saw this slimming place for men and the price is really cheap and affordable. It caughts his attention. He decided to walks in and browse through the prices available for his package. It was written, 1. SGD100 for 5kg lost, Guaranteed. The 2nd package is SGD200 for 10kg lost, Guaranteed as well and the last 1, 3rd package is written SGD300 for 15kg lost, Guaranteed. Being a typical man and with the unbelievable low price and his skepticallism, he decided to try out the cheapest package for a trial.

He was escorted to a room. He waited in there for about 5 minutes. Knock Knock! The door in front of him opens and to the shock of his life, a Chinese supermodel lookalike with a super sexy bods wearing a slightly transparent workout suit walks in. She says," If you can catch me, i will let you do whatever you pleased!". Meng's heart was beating like a horse running wild. He was too excited and he chases after this chinese lady for 30 minutes around the room. 45 minutes gone and she finally gets too tired running. He catch her by the arms and make love to her passionately. He smiles and walks of after that feeling satisfied and lost 5kg at promised by the shop. He felt good and feels alive with all the sweat and weight lost. He determine to go back again tomorrow.

By tomorrow, slightly around 6pm after work, he heads back straight to that particular shop again. This time, he is more daring and adventurous, and judging by how much weight he lost and the fun he have yesterday, he decided to go for the 2nd package. This time his heart was beating even faster while waiting in the room. A supermodel look-a-like with the face of a causasian mix with eastern european looks walks in. She is even hotter compare to what he gets yesterday. He almost jumps up and falls of his chair. He was too delighted. She says" If you catch me, i will give you the best day in your life!". He went berserk and like a wild horse, he runs and chase after the girl in the room. Like what had happen yesterday, he was even more happier this time and to his delight he lost 10kg as promised. He was having the time of his life. He went out the room and decided at that moment he wanted to take the 3rd slimming package right away. He was so happy and satisfied that he knew that the last package will be even more mind-blowing and more fantastic than the previous 2.

He went to the receptionist and says that he wanted to take the 3rd package right away. He was escorted into a room as usual. His heart beats faster than a F1 car. He was having sweaty palms. He was excited and he was feeling great! Then, with all the climaxes and excitement running down his blood, enters 2 muscular naked 7feet man that resembles a Triple H from WWF. Both of them says simultaneously, "If both of us catch you, we will have you tied up and have you for breakfast tomorrow morning!"

Hahaha. Enjoy!

Good Day! Bad Day!

I am feeling a little bit of funny today. Dunno why, maybe too much going on at once until i can't be able to feel anything in particular or point my feeling to a specific individual event. Life is going plateau for me right now with a little bit of up and down for me. These couple of days have been my up i guess. Feeling enjoyable but yet felt regret to a certain extend.

I went to KTV, couple hours of badminton to sweat of any toxic out of my blood and been to feet massage. Yes, i do enjoy myself here but i am missing my family and Romeo as well. Feeling of enjoying myself and not having to see them and missing them and thinking about what they are doing makes me soft in my heart. Felt guilty in a way that makes me worry too.

Weathers have been kind to me for a couple of days, not tat particularly hot and humid, but enough to make me sweat walking around the town. At least i am not feeling hot and burning at my neck and shoulder after a session of jay-walking. Just some baby sweat! Haha.

One thing particularly i have to adjust to is the people here sleeps early. Shops starts to close at 9pm and by 10pm, you can really felt the emptiness of the streets even at the shopping district. Only certain cafes and restaurants opens beyond that hour and you definitely can felt the vast differences when 8pm and 10pm. When i am back in Singapore and Malaysia, certain places only starts to pack at 12am especially in discos in KL. Coffeebeans and Starbucks back home is still pack with people until wee hour in the morning especially weekend. Mamaks and cybercafes is even later. You still will be able to see people sipping their cup of teh halia and teh tarik at 2am. Quite bad i must say for body and healthiness.

Anyway, i am now started to adjust to the time here as well. I am going to adjourn to bed, and now is at 2am. Haha. Slight improvement i think compare to in Malaysia when i sleep oftenly after 1am. So take care all of your all and enjoy your weekend in whatever you might be doing.


Enjoy!